SeE i ToLd YoU hE'D bE bAcK
If this is what's going through your head right now, I don't have anything good to say to you.
OneNatives, this is going to be one of the hardest things I've ever had to tell you, but getting it off my chest will probably be a huge relief. Also, just a heads up, this is arguably going to be the darkest thread I've ever posted on any website. The topics in this thread may not be for the most sensitive people out there, so consider this my "viewer discretion advised" warning if this gets to be too much.
You guys remember Refractex, right? The guy who everybody thought was Kai's alt? Well, as it turns out...it's possible that he is no longer alive.
You guys are all probably confused and upset at the title of this thread, but, when I was talking to Refractex (Or Kenneth, as he's known IRL) for the final time, I felt ridiculously angry. So what I said to him was, and I quote: "Also, I never said anything homophobic, learn to get over that".
(My apologies to Rien if I wasn't supposed to reveal this next part)
But the problem with that is, and this was the part I never knew about until just recently, but Kenneth had grown up in a very religious household, or so I've been told. When his parents found out he was a homosexual, they didn't take it well. In fact, their thoughts on the topic were exactly the same as mine, so it's something he dealt with for quite some time.
So, when I spoke my final words to him, and he blocked me, Rien informed me that it just might've been enough for him to take his own life (though we don't know for sure if he's dead or not). Even though it was suicide, this does mean that I...killed him, in a way.
I really didn't want to have to follow through with this at first, but just last night, I had received 23 messages from Kai, who was understandably angry with me for not owning up to this. It seemed as if our truce was off. Despite this, he did knock some sense into me via those messages.
So, you probably noticed that my profile picture and nickname on Discord have changed. This is because as of today, I am cyber-suiciding. I don't want to hurt anyone (let alone this badly) ever again, even if it's somebody I never really got along with, like Kenneth. I won't be returning to Discord anytime soon, and I'm probably going to stop using Wikia after all of this spreads.
I know some of you are going to hate me for ending on a cliche, but I want this to be a lesson. Think before you speak. Don't be a cyberbully. All of this goes to show that even one sentence is enough for somebody to end it all.
P.S: Really quickly, I want to apologize to Rien and Kai, for indirectly putting them in their respective situations. I have no clue as to how long Rien's been at this, but he's been doing everything he can to find Refractex and it's because of me. I also want to apologize to Kai, because he, alongside Alan, been looking for Refractex for a month, as he's told me. I am unaware of who exactly Alan is, but Kai has told me Alan's been considering following in Kenneth's footsteps because of all of this. None of this would've happened if I had managed to keep my cool. I'm terribly sorry to the both of you, and I wish you both the best of luck on your quest to find Kenneth.